time really passes beri fast... was down at the cemetry yesterday midnight to pay respects to my grandparents and my dad... and suddenly realized.. it's been almost 17 years since my dad passed away... such a long time.. enuff for my youngest sis of 3 yrs old then to grow up till 20 yrs old now... enuff for us to survive thru the hardest periods of our family life...

when dad passed away... i was only 10yrs old.. yet i had to share the burden with my mum.. both my sisters were too young to even understand the meaning of death.... dad was the sole breadwinner and mum had a hard time trying to adjust to working life after that.. and she had to cope with work, 3 kids at home.. as well as curb her missing of dad... it was really a very hard period to get thru... but we managed to ... somehow...

i remember when i finished o'levels and went to work parttime b4 going to poly... was working in an arcade centre... then by clocking lotsa OT hrs..managed to earn quite a bit everymth.. but mum happened to lose her job then... then my pay became the only source of income to manage the family.. then when i went on to poly... managed to get a bank loan for my studies.. and continued to work part time... then on to NIE...

life has finally improved for us....after so long... it was quite hard though... but i think this made mi more tough and independent in the process...sometimes.. mum relies on mi as her support and i have to be strong enuff to be there for her... but there are times which we quarrelled and had problems... but there are inevitable.. no matter what happens... she's my mum and i do love her... just as the same goes to my dad... although not around... i really miss him a lot... sometimes i would lament in my heart... why my dad is taken from us... but nothing can be done...i think my sisters and i share the same thought now..

Dad.. we miss u...