yup.. my so-called holidays are finally here... after 1 year of tough work, the time to rest is now.. i always have mixed feelings about my year end holidays... when there's no time to rest during work days, u pray for holidays to come...

but when the holidays really arrive... u realise all u do is to rot... some of u may say , take the time to meet friends u haben seen for a long time... but alas... friends all working... then when holidays are about to end.. i will start to lament about how fast days pass, not enuff time to rest etc...

but however, when my holidays end... it means it's another new year... new classes, new challenges, and this year.. more new colleagues, less familiar faces... always tend to wonder what class will i get, how would they behave, etc... but hope my classes next year will be like my classes this year... quite like my classes this year... really had fun with them this year... and seeing their improvement thruout the year.. i really feel a sense of satisfication.. ^.^

my group of P6 Wushu baobeis are graduating this year... they were wif mi ever since wushu started in my school, to me, they are like my own kids, will really miss them when they go on to secondary school... however, hope they will excel in secondary school and go on to greater heights...

sometimes, i wonder... am i in the right career? am i suitable for this job? am i qualified to guide and educate the young? am i a good teacher? sometimes, i simply wonder.... when i see students improving, i really feel a sense of satisfication, but when i see students giving up on themselves, i feel as though i'm to be blamed for that.. is it my way of teaching that's wrong? or my approach to them is wrong?

there was this period, where i really wanted to quit teaching... disappointed and sad... that was really a bad year... things weren't going well, lotsa stuff cropped up... stress took a toll on me... nearly broke down... but i survived thru it.... yet sometimes when i look back on ... i start to think, will this kind of thing happen again? how will i cope with it then? haben tot of a solution yet.. lol..
but nethertheless, i love to teach... thru teaching, i learned things that i didn't noe b4 too... we learn as we teach... so for as long as i can, i will continue to teach so as to continue to learn...